I’m starting to hear things
Maybe it’s because I’m reading Liber Lilith, I don’t know, but I’m starting to hear things. I was woken yesterday morning at 4:45 by some woman shouting my name. All the doors in the house were locked and I was alone. The voice was that real that I thought there was somebody else in the house. On getting back to sleep again I was woken several hours later by the same thing.
I’ve had astral voices before but nothing to compare with this. On getting to sleep again I was woken for a third time with a female voice shouting “Hello?” in a questioning manner. I got out of bed again and went downstairs and checked that there was nobody there and that the doors were locked. There wasn’t and they were.
I have been reading Tyson’s Liber Lilith before going to sleep most nights, admittedly only a few pages a night, and in Steiger’s journal he does mention about the coming of the presence of Lilith but this is just plain odd. I have done no ritual work of any kind in a long time, neither have I done anything to call Lilith deliberately. There have been a few blog posts in relation to Lilith but this has been only a small part of what has been happening in my life at the moment and doesn’t really warrant much attention in the grand scheme of things.
One interesting thing I did read recently was that Lilith has both a light and a dark side, indeed this is true of all consciousness forms (I dislike the term Godform) and backs up my recent statement that all women are fucked in the head to some degree, i.e. dark and Qliphotic as well as bright and Sephirotic.
I spent the rest of the day half asleep which doesn’t do my health a lot of good as I have enough trouble sleeping and waking as it is. I haven’t slept properly in months anyway. If things carry on like this I’ll end up in a permanent twilight zone of consciousness and will be half spaced out which isn’t what I want.
I’ve stopped drinking coffee on an evening, indeed have cut down my caffeine intake drastically, have not touched alcohol in over a fortnight, haven’t had nicotine in my system in over a week and have been eating plenty of fruit and vegetables so I don’t know what’s going on. I did have a bit of a cold over the weekend but even this doesn’t warrant auditory hallucinations.
